Rest, Real Rest -- Attainable?

The reading material was great this week, as always. But Chapter 7 in The Heroes Journey felt like it was written for/to me. It is kind of a joke in my family how little sleep I get. Even when I am working to have "down time" - it is often watching a movie or some series on Netflix. It amounts to less sleep and no real peace.

"Without rest, as we press on, day after day, striving and working, we become frazzled. We think less clearly; we make poor decisions; we snap at loved ones."

I have become so spread thin with all that I am trying to do that I am beyond frazzled. I know that the Lord has carried me through much of it. I have no right to claim all that I can get done in a week sometimes. It has truly been through the grace of a loving Savior. But I notice that I start into a pattern of numbness and distance from the peace and warmth of the Spirit. Not because there is overt sinning or even anything bad. But, just checking the boxes and getting done what needs to and not enjoying the journey as it comes day to day. I think I capture bits of it throughout the day, but it is very different than at times in my life when I have felt continued peace and love. I think I become so un-fun as well. I don't like that.

I found great hope as I read through this chapter. Hope that I connected with the reminders of the detriments of this day to day lifestyle and that I need to work to get out of the cycle.

I will work to choose different activities to rest. Read more (even though I fall asleep when reading) -- I think I will get in a better cycle to be more 'rested' when reading.

I will stop with my "Distractions from Distractions by Distractions".

"If human beings simply become human doings, our sense of ourselves and our existence is diminished, leaving it mediocre, unsatisfying, and meaningless."

I need to become more of a human being!