Good Things To Come
One of the videos this week was Elder Holland's "Good Things to Come". I love that little Mormon Message. It takes me back to times where I wanted to quit. Times that I felt like I was not equipped to "slay my dragon" - so to speak. It is emotional for me every time I watch it.
I lost a baby when I was seven months pregnant. It felt more than I could bear. It has almost been six years now since our little boy was born. Just one year prior, one of my dearest friends lost her eighteen year old son. When I watched this video this week, it took me back to those days that seemed impossible to me to move forward. I think that I loved the Hero's Journey reading this week for the same reason. There have been some tough things in my life that I have had to overcome, but those deaths and that time period 6 or so years ago was a dragon I didn't feel equipped to slay. But it was a one day at a time sort of progress. Some days, it was minute by minute. But with almost complete reliance on the Lord and the most amazing family and friends to support and lift, it became one of the pillar learning experiences of my life. I was forever changed. There was no way not to be changed. I belong to the Lord - forever.
I imagined, as did Elder Holland, coming across that woman (me) those many years ago and saying, "don't you quit" - "there are better days and more happiness ahead". But somehow I knew that. Somehow the Lord mercifully helped me to feel His healing hand and unconditional love.
It is so much not the same, but I am slaying a dragon of a different kind now. Three of my four children are grown and off to school, missions and marriage. All wonderful things, but I am missing them so much. It is hard to have them leaving. I need to figure out how to help my youngest daughter have meaningful and wonderful experiences with us left at home. I am trying to do too many things right now and I am not making it work very well. Too many things are slipping. My health and rest, for one. Time and care for my family. I am spread too thin. I asked my husband that we can pray together and counsel together to help get things balanced better for me and for our family.
As I read the book and the others readings, I appreciate the clarity and direction that are coming from it. I will slay this dragon, and will be better for having had the opportunity.
I lost a baby when I was seven months pregnant. It felt more than I could bear. It has almost been six years now since our little boy was born. Just one year prior, one of my dearest friends lost her eighteen year old son. When I watched this video this week, it took me back to those days that seemed impossible to me to move forward. I think that I loved the Hero's Journey reading this week for the same reason. There have been some tough things in my life that I have had to overcome, but those deaths and that time period 6 or so years ago was a dragon I didn't feel equipped to slay. But it was a one day at a time sort of progress. Some days, it was minute by minute. But with almost complete reliance on the Lord and the most amazing family and friends to support and lift, it became one of the pillar learning experiences of my life. I was forever changed. There was no way not to be changed. I belong to the Lord - forever.
I imagined, as did Elder Holland, coming across that woman (me) those many years ago and saying, "don't you quit" - "there are better days and more happiness ahead". But somehow I knew that. Somehow the Lord mercifully helped me to feel His healing hand and unconditional love.
It is so much not the same, but I am slaying a dragon of a different kind now. Three of my four children are grown and off to school, missions and marriage. All wonderful things, but I am missing them so much. It is hard to have them leaving. I need to figure out how to help my youngest daughter have meaningful and wonderful experiences with us left at home. I am trying to do too many things right now and I am not making it work very well. Too many things are slipping. My health and rest, for one. Time and care for my family. I am spread too thin. I asked my husband that we can pray together and counsel together to help get things balanced better for me and for our family.
As I read the book and the others readings, I appreciate the clarity and direction that are coming from it. I will slay this dragon, and will be better for having had the opportunity.
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